I am experiencing new environment,
Year 2006: When i first met Amit Singh Gaur, he had a passing resemblance to Shahrukh Khan, and still he possess the charisma. I knew three people are joining the team today and they were Ejaz, Ramesh and Amit. I was discussing office politics with Parth in the NOC room. Initial arrogance and stupidity on immature levels always prompt me to discuss about shortcoming in others and job change. Every time i will meet a talented new face, will ask for a job change guidance. This was quite irritating. Sometimes i hate so much about some stupidity i had, that i want to completely erase all about it, however this is learning curve and i can not differentiate beyond the tangent levels. Since i was a fresher and was not getting out of the fresher mindset, was not charged to take a lead. Though my managers were expecting Parker to mature in Spiderman, i was still romancing with kids behavior. Seniors around you and helping hand are sometimes so grave that they do not let new kids to come out of their own comfort shell. When i was with the most qualified experts, i didn’t had the courage to troubleshoot alone, When i am without them i can do any damn stuff, sometimes, screening effect matters in life outside atomic scales as well.
Some of my mates i meet nowadays are obsessed with Technical Arrogance, and some on the other side believe in the materialization of personal relationship for professional growth. They fight terribly since the vectors have a head on trajectory with 180 degrees phase shifts. Most of them are not transparent to what they think, speak and do. They are not in harmony. Their internal disharmony leads to chaotic questions and answers which they themselves do not want to answer. They discuss and seek a favorable answer from their friends. If they get an answer which supports their emotions you are good friends otherwise not. You must comply. This is ABC to the perception management and a daunting task for team leaders.
Whenever i meet some wicked and weak person, i think what if i were him. If i had executed something like that in my life style. This keeps me being away from those vulnerabilities. I keep myself some distance apart, but this brings a vacuum which must be filled with some positive energy and i realize the value of company of good inspiring friends. Though if they were harsh or soft, this was learning and if it come at any cost it is worth.
Anyways, back in days of 2006, i was coming downstairs after a KT session from Kalyan Sir. Amit was comfortable with IP Schema understanding, while i was smart enough to hide my doubts over IP Subnettings. I pretend, i know and people believed. I was again inspired by intelligent people and asked Rajiv, rather i complained about missing IP Subnets in the Schema, however he confidently explained why is the gap, i was stunned, how he knew, he just joined the team some days back.
I see my past in some faces around in present. The same story with different characters. Zeal to get recognized, hatred, discussing about others and complaining attitude. This is a cyclic equations, like floating Google circles. Time bring perfection and there is something called experience, one can not materialize it before time and gain it when time has passed.