I quickly burned my hands as usual, realized later, this was late. They were right. If i was in charge, i could have jumped in to save, however the discussion went long and situation were not synchronized with my clock.
Most of the times, i sound offensive. I write emails which is not understood to many and they say “he is dandy,”. In the pursuit of understanding and perfection, i make many things, which they say “is a waste of time,”. But i love to waste time. Waste time in my way.
I tried again talking to dead zombies. Since i knew they will not be alive, so i kept their Gods in copy. They responded quickly. It works. The dead shits when interrogated gives horrible smells. They don’t have even a trace of enthusiasm, passion to their work, interest. They do meditation. In front of their computers, they do look very busy. To them is their productivity. Infinite to them, zero to me. But who am i?
If you can’t bring result, its OK, try again, don’t loose passion. If you don’t want to bring results, You are horrible, how come you exist?
This is not a good idea to exist in a system, which is incompetent to nurture fresh idea. The whole struggle is “how to exist”, “how not to work”, “how to keep the boss happy” and “how to escape”. If a team is passionate about their work, result follows, otherwise they follow raw, unstructured spreadsheets. The copies of un-formatted excels, documents and of course they call it the work. Is it really?
I loved drawings, playing with colors, crayons, canvas and beauty. And still love to flaunt my passion in work. I am not a very hi-fi techie who understand well, however i love to make things simple with smart illustrations, paintings and feel great if it produce result. If something is working and i am a part of it. If something is solved and the engineering excites. It may be crazy, weird or foolishness to many. You work for someone, how do you feel great? Well, i have not achieved the corporate salvation of totipotency, and feel happy with these tiny acts, or some power point presentations. That’s me and my happiness, let me be fool.
So you are a great manager. Deaf, dumb and blind. Your management is selfishness, where you think of your personal growth, personal comfort and do not care where team is going. Where are people going? Where is the spark of inspiration, which make learning warm and capable to germinate the hidden potentials of people on ground. They don’t feel great about work, and that’s the litmus test to your effectiveness. However a person should not expect any thing good from someone who can not think beyond his comfort shell. This is average Indian mindset and we all are part of it.
There is a crossroad and choices, and the gravity of time is money. So let’s stick to it. Let them behave as they are. Focus on your objective, no matter, if you also smell like them, sometimes it’s OK.